So I’m Engaged Now… Advice?

Anyone have any advice on great wedding blogs/ideas, or next steps to take?

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Focus On Thinking You’re Good Enough

I recently came across this article written by Madison Sonnier all about things to remember when you think you’re not good enough. I know I, as well as many others, often think that I’m not good enough in many situations.

This negative thinking pattern can have detrimental effects to your self-esteem and state of mind, and it is important to be healthy mentally. I think this article provides seven easy points that you can reflect on whenever you are feeling down about yourself.

In summary, the seven points are:

  1. The people you compare yourself to compare themselves to other people too.
  2. Your mind can be a very convincing liar.
  3. There is more right with you than wrong with you.
  4. You need love the most when you feel you deserve it the least.
  5. You have to fully accept and make peace with the “now” before you can reach and feel satisfied with the “later.”
  6. Focus on progress rather than perfection and on how far you’ve come rather than on how far you have left to go.
  7. You can’t hate your way into loving yourself

Madison goes into greater detail for each of the points; you can read the full article here

Hello World, I’m Back

Life has moved pretty quickly the past 7 months. I changed a lot, and grown up a lot. I got to start over. Graduate school applications are done, and now I play the waiting game. With school officially over for the time being, I find myself with a lot more free time; I thought about how I missed blogging.

So here I am, a little more wiser, and a little more patched up. For the first time, in a very long time, I feel new; like a phoenix rising from the ashes; reborn. It’s rather refreshing. I’m with someone new. He’s rather refreshing — my bearded hard-working writer — he makes me happy. Love is such a funny thing; it never really works in the way you expect it to. It changes, it shapes, it’s versatile. I don’t regret everything I’ve been through in the past, since it’s what led me here, to this very moment; back on the blogging sphere, back to myself. I’ve missed you.

M.

Say It With Music

Sometimes music just captures exactly what you want to say. As you guys know from my previous post, I’ve been through a ton recently. I have a lot to say, but I just can’t say it without starting any negativity, so instead I created a playlist that has a list of songs that capture everything I feel. So, if you’re feeling like crap and going through a breakup, I’m sure some of these, if not all of these songs will be great to listen to. 

Later I’ll post a more upbeat playlist to blast when you want to feel good about yourself and leave all that negativity from a breakup behind. 

Here is The Saddest Playlist Ever; Continue reading

Life is a bottomless pit of darkness, but you’re sane enough to climb out of it

Serious post here.

Have you ever been in something you invested in for so long, that’s it’s utter heartbreak when it falls through? I have. Whether it be a job, school, or relationship. Mine was a 6 year long relationship, and I’ve learned a lot that I figure I can share, because if anyone understands heartbreak and life spitting in your face, that’s me. Someone can relate to this somehow.

The truth is no one tells you how hard it is when something you invested so much time in slips away. No one talks about a personal lurking darkness because it’s so stigmatized. I’ve honestly been through hell and back, and experienced darkness. My dark side was depression. I was clinically depressed for about two years in my second year of university, and sought out counselling help to learn how to cope with it. I’m over the hard bits now, but only because counselling helped me through that, and I applied the things I learned to help deal with my depression. There are traces still left over, and I’m not 100% better, but I know I will be.

Why was I depressed? My relationship with R hit a kink in the tracks that caused the train to derail a year and a half into our relationship. I lost my self-esteem, my sense of self, everything that I built. Nonetheless we repaired our relationship after some time and got back together. But I was never whole ever since that major speed bump occurred, and I’m still not. That incident kicked off more, but less intense incidents and setbacks, but we trucked through. Let me tell you what I learned;

1. It’s no use in mending a relationship when you’re not at your fullest potential, it’ll just cause more problems.

2. People make mistakes, and they can change (but only if they truly in their heart want to). Forgive and maybe spend sometime apart to regain what was lost, depending on how bad the situation is.

3. Relationships take hard work. Especially serious ones, it’s unrealistic to think that if it’s meant to be, it should just work. Get that idea out of your head

4. Problems are bound to occur, so it’s important to figure out ways that you can properly deal with them.

  • Good fighting tactics
    • active listening – actually listen and try to understand what the other person is trying to say
    • validating – rephrase what your partner is trying to say, you’ll be showing them your making an effort to understand them.
    • using I feel statements – Start off sentences with I feel _____ to easily let your partner know how it is you’re truly feeling without being accusatory
    • Communicate effectively – don’t be condescending or ignore the other person
    • Make sure they know you still care about them at the end of all this
  • Things to avoid:
    • You statements – things like ‘you do this always’ or ‘you _____’ is accusatory and will set the other person in defensive mode
    • avoid name calling and cursing – it’ll fuel the fire
    • Leaving and never talking about the situation again – if you really need to remove yourself from the situation, just say I need 20 minutes to calm down, and make sure you calmly revisit the problem after, and not sweep it under the rug
    • Avoid kitchen-sinking – kitchen-sinking is throwing in irrelevant topics to the problem, or adding more things to the list to be mad at. Focus on the problem at hand.
    • Avoid gunnysacking – gunnysacking is letting the little things slide by, and bottling them up until one day you explode. It’s important to address issues as they come up, not waiting till one day you explode.

5. Be you, and do the things that you want. Don’t always do things because you feel like you need to, or because you feel like it has to be this way. Do what you actually want. That way, you’ll have a lot less regrets, if any. Stay true to you, and don’t lose sight of that

At the end of the day, a 6 year relationship isn’t something that was easy. There are many other couples who have been together longer, and I’m sure can share with you the mountain of problems they had to work out. R ended our relationship, but I don’t blame him for that. He obviously needs to figure out himself, and so do I, since we were never the same since the first big incident that caused us to walk on eggshells. Don’t get me wrong, perfect times were perfect, but I need to regain what I lost when I was depressed, and I haven’t yet. I’m still here, and that’s what’s important. I’m still sane enough to climb out of that bottomless pit called life, and climb out so that I’ll be on top. It’s a long way, but it’s worth it knowing that I can do it on my own. I’m not sure what’ll happen between R and I, but I know you can’t erase the love we have, and will always have for each other. And of course I’ll always be there for him, because I’m so stubborn and love him wholeheartedly.

But all I know is, right now I need to focus on me, and regain 100% all of the self that I lost. And that’s a damn good reason to stay sane and not give up.

Forever (summertime)sadness

First things first, I’m back people! Sorry I’ve been on a hiatus for so long, I had to put my leisure activities on hold while I focused on my last year of undergrad. Now that I’ve successfully applied to grad school, I can start getting back to my life and the things I really enjoy

My first blog post of 2014 (a little late I might add, I know) is going to be about my passionate hate that all of you share or have shared. Tickets went on sale today to the general public for Lana Del Rey’s North American tour. Like a maniac, I tried to get my hands on some pre-sale tickets with no luck. Naturally I was even more stressed out when tickets went on sale today at 11am. I was primed and ready, and I even had a little help from my housemates just to score 2 tickets to her Toronto show.

I’ve never really had any problems purchasing concert tickets before from Ticketmaster and Live Nation, until today. I started refreshing the page at 10:59am like a crazy person and kept getting the same anxiety-inducing message saying that the tickets were in high demand. We tried for about 45 minutes until Ticketmaster locked our IP address accusing us of being scalpers

Whoops. Note to everyone buying high demand tickets, don’t get your friends to help you if you don’t want your IP address blocked temporarily by Ticketmaster. Sorry for being a super-crazed nut trying to secure 2 tickets. Thankfully, I had Ticketmaster up on my phone and was refreshing that page as well since 11am. High demand, high demand, high demand. Over and over again, like some sick merry-go-round ride with it’s riders chained to the circus animals. Long story short, 12pm hit and I never ended up getting through, and finally a messaged flashed saying sorry there were no tickets matching your search.

Literally me right now

Heartbroken, I’m not ashamed to admit I cried a little two hours later. Stubhub has balcony tickets starting at $150, when those tickets retail for $40. The big kicker; there are more than 1000 tickets on Stubhub available for her Toronto show with the most expensive seat selling for almost $10,000. That’s right $10,000.

I just wanted to say a big FUCK YOU to all of you dicks that purchased tickets for the show just to screw everyone over and sell your tickets at batshit crazy prices. We fans just want to attend to show to enjoy the experience, and listen to the artist we love live. Extortion is wrong, scalping tickets is wrong. The fact that all you assholes take advantage of fans is twisted, and I hope you burn in hell forever.

To the fans who did manage to get a ticket miraculously, I congratulate you and I’m overtly envious. Here’s hoping she adds another Toronto show to her lineup, because these ticket shenanigans are ridiculous

TLDR; Scalpers are dicks

I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT BABY YOU’RE THE BEST

 

UPDATE: FUCK YOU TICKETMASTER, I’M SEEING MY MAIN BITCH THIS SUMMER

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True Love Exists

I’ve always believed in true love existing ever since I was little. This probably started because I watched Disney movies religiously (they were my drug). Reading about sentimental stories makes me tear up since I’m such a sap. I’m going to cry my eyes out at my own wedding, I just know it. The idea of true love just makes me so happy for other people. I thought I’d share with you Buzzfeed’s post on 25 pictures that will make you believe in true love to brighten your night.